the world is a vampire, sent to drain
secret destroyers, hold you up to the flames
and what do i get, for my pain
betrayed desires, and a piece of the game
even though i know-i suppose i'll show
all my cool and cold-like old job
despite all my rage i am still just a rat in a cage
then someone will say what is lost can never be saved
despite all my rage i am still just a rat in a cage
now i'm naked, nothing but an animal
but can you fake it, for just one more show
and what do you want, i want to change
and what have you got
when you feel the same
even though i know-i suppose i'll show
all my cool and cold-like old job
despite all my rage i am still just a rat in a cage
then someone will say what is lost can never be saved
despite all my rage i am still just a rat in a cage
tell me i'm the only one
tell me there's no other one
jesus was an only son
tell me i'm the chosen one
jesus was an only son for you
despite all my rage i am still just a rat in a cage
and i still believe that i cannot be saved

...said sadly
james iha
© 1995 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

(JI=James Iha, NG=Nina Gordon (of Veruca Salt), B=both)

shakedown 1979, cool kids never have the time
on a live wire right up off the street
you and i should meet
junebug skipping like a stone
with the headlights pointed at the dawn
we were sure we'd never see an end to it all
and i don't even care to shake these zipper blues
and we don't know
just where our bones will rest
to dust i guess
forgotten and absorbed into the earth below
double cross the vacant and the bored
they're not sure just what we have in the store
morphine city slippin dues down to see
that we don't even care as restless as we are
we feel the pull in the land of a thousand guilts
and poured cement, lamented and assured
to the lights and towns below
faster than the speed of sound
faster than we thought we'd go, beneath the sound of hope
justine never knew the rules,
hung down with the freaks and the ghouls
no apologies ever need be made, i know you better than you fake it
to see that we don't care to shake these zipper blues
and we don't know just where our bones will rest
to dust i guess
forgotten and absorbed into the earth below
the street heats the urgency of sound
as you can see there's no one around

ugly
billy corgan
© 1996 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

i don't look in the mirror
i don't like what i see staring back at me
everything is clearer
i'll never see what you see
it's not me
so beautiful and free
i'll never be what you need
can't help at all
i was born so beautiful
but now i'm ugly

and i rot in my skin
as a piece of me dies everyday
i know i'm nothing
i know there's nothing i can say
to change
the judgment in their ways
i'll never be what you need
can't help at all
my love was so beautiful
but now i'm ugly
yeah...

i'm good enough, but i don't care
i'm good enough, but i'm not there
i'm good enough, but i don't care
the sun is out, but i'm not there

(i can go anywhere) i'm good enough, but i don't care (...somewhere)
(i can go anywhere) the sun is out, but i'm not there (...somewhere)
(i can go anywhere) i'm good enough (...somewhere)
(i can go anywhere) i'm good enough (...somewhere)

i don't look in the mirror
i don't like what i see staring back at me
everything is clearer
i'll never see what you see
and i rot in my skin
as a piece of me dies everyday
i know i'm nothing
because i'm ugly

believe
james iha
© 1996 chrysalis songs/cellophane star music (bmi)

close your eyes
until the sunlight dies
in your head a thousand stars
through the darkness you can see love light
and if they steal your light
your heart is still in mine

i want to believe in you and i heard you
your song, you sing, a truth is no other
i want to believe in you, dear

of someday...

there's a life i hide
but i try to disguise
and i could take you a million miles away

i want to believe in you and i heard you
your song, you sing, a truth is no other
i want to believe in you, dear

on sunday i made amends
of all my mistakes
may godspeed be with you

and i...
i want to believe in you and i heard you
your song, you sing, a truth is no other
i want to believe in you and i heard you
your song, you sing, a truth is no other
i want to believe in you and i heard you
your song, you sing, a truth, a lover
i want to believe in you and i heard you
your song, you sing, a truth, is no other
i want to believe in you, dear
of someday...

on sunday i make amends
for all my mistakes
may godspeed be with you

cherry
billy corgan
© 1996 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

(listen-wanna just start it?...ready, flood?
yeah...1, 2, 3, 4)

stay with me, i'll set you free
'cause i can tell you once were pretty
rose so sad you've lost your petals
and lost the luster of your tattle tales

i need a love to help me find my way
i need a strength that i cannot betray
i need a word to say what i can't say
i need a lover, lover
i need a lover, lover

what are we waiting for?
what are we waiting for?
time has lost its hold on me

hatred sleeps inside my bones
in the stillness of cool air
all the boys have been left for dead
'cause we know where they fear to tread
the beautiful ones, the ones we'll remember
the precious ones, our greatest pretenders

i need a love to help me find my way
i need a strength that i cannot betray
i need a word to say what i can't say
i need a lover, lover
i need a lover, lover

and if you lose yourself
could you take me, too?
could you rest inside the sleep?

stay with me, i'll set you free from you

the boy
james iha
© 1996 chrysalis songs/cellophane star music (bmi)

i can't stop, i can't breathe, i can't think
i'm in love again
i don't need, i don't eat, i don't sleep
i'm in love again

ooh, and every time i heard you breathe
i sighed
ooh, and every time i saw you bleed
i cried
love is like a song
and if you sing
if you ever need me
i'll be there, and i-

i can't stop, can't breathe, can't think
i'm in love again
i don't need, i don't eat, i don't sleep
i'm in love again

ooh, and every time that i'm with you
i'm alive
ooh, and every time i think of you
there's a light
and i felt it, too

and my heart is a spring
is a well, if you need
if you drink it for you
then i'm leavin'
every little part of me is a part of you

i can't stop, i can't breathe, i can't think
i'm in love again
i don't need, i don't eat, i don't sleep
i'm in love again
i can't stop, i can't breathe, i can't think
i'm in love again
i don't need, i don't eat, i don't sleep
i'm in love again
the boy, the boy's in love
the boy, the boy's in love
the boy, the boy's in love
the boy, the boy's in love

set the ray to jerry
billy corgan
© 1996 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

born to please every simple need
i stand alone in my thoughts indeed
hate you
for ever making me
i'm in you
i'm your anything

(and) i want you
and i need you
and all you are is brand new
and i need you

come to me
let me hold you still
i'm so tired
just as tired as you
take me for anyone
but me
all that you feel is never true

(and) i want you
and i need you
and all you are is brand new
and i need you

when you say that you are
forever my star
could never ever let you go (no, no)
and never let you know

let roar these fears
to the whore of my tears
pure as a lie
i pour to your eyes
suck you
like the sap from a tree
honey from the dew
from the bumble bees (yeah yeah)

(and) i want you
and i need you
and all you are is brand new
and i need you

when you say that you are
forever my star
i'll never ever let you go (no, no)
never let you know

time is never time at all
you can never ever leave without leaving a piece of youth
and our lives are forever changed
we will never be the same
the more you change the less you feel
believe, believe in me, believe
that life can change, that you're not stuck in vain
we're not the same, we're different tonight
tonight, so bright
tonight
and you know you're never sure
but you're sure you could be right
if you held yourself up to the light
and the embers never fade in your city by the lake
the place where you were born
believe, believe in me, believe
in the resolute urgency of now
and if you believe there's not a chance tonight
tonight, so bright tonight
we'll crucify the insincere tonight
we'll make things right, we'll feel it all tonight
we'll find a way to offer up the night tonight
the indescribable moments of your life tonight
the impossible is possible tonight
believe in me as i believe in you, tonight

meladori magpie
billy corgan
© 1996 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

And on her doorstep
I saw that I was blind
I'd forsaken
What was mine

What had mattered
Mattered little now
We had shattered
Apart somehow

Ooh
I can't help but stay the same
I remain true to my name

Time to get up
And take the long walk home
For the first time
I go alone

Do you remember
when we first met?
Chasing down the alleyways
behind my dad's

Ooh
I can't help but stay the same
I remain true to the name
Of lovers past
Good enough to lose
Good enough to choose you, too

Ooh
I can't help but stay the same
Ooh
I remain true to the name
Of lovers past
Good enough to lose
Good enough to choose you, too

rotten apples
billy corgan
© 1996 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

Dirty your face
With longing and grace, God-given
Suffer her heart
And love her when your love goes unrequited

Where the cool winds blow
I must surely go
For my love calls me below to drag her
from the depths of my soul

When will I see her again?
The other side of friends
The darkened claws of death
The empty breath desire

Dirty your face
With longing and grace, God-given
Suffer her heart
And love her when your love goes unrequited

Restless in my speech
And ruthless in my teach
So vacant in my breach
I drive the dirt up her garden

Sorrow
She'll never listen again
No other lovers to bend
Just rotten apples to eat
Just letter yellowed distant scorn

Dirty your face
With longing and grace, God-given
Suffer her heart
And love her when your love goes unrequited

Life just fades away
Purity just begs
Dust to dust, we're wired into sadness

jupiter's lament
billy corgan
© 1996 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

Gone, long gone
We can all be gone, gone, gone
Leave this world all wrong, wrong, wrong
Leave it far behind

And although my secret's gone I'll try to carry on
If I must, I'll get along without you

Gone, long gone
Leave this world all wrong, wrong, wrong
Beyond the pale beyond the dawn
Free these mortal bonds
No one knows I can't be wrong
So I'll sing the same old songs
I try to be strong for you

Why have you left me
Amongst the tall trees
I know I gave her all I have

And I tied her heart in ribbons
Tied her heart in ribbons
Tied her heart in ribbons and bows

And I'm gone
Oh yes, I'm gone
And I'm lost without you
I'm lost within you
And I'm gone, so gone, long gone

medellia of the grey skies
billy corgan
© 1996 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

You're an empty promise
You're an easy chair
You're the gods forces
Struck down somewhere

You're a secret noticed
You're a mystery sky
You're a wish floating
Up to the night

Medellia of my eyes
You're the emptiness of I
You're the reason that I write
And if you say you will
I would love you still

And if I could
I'd throw away this world
I'd dress you all in pearls
I'd give you what you wanted

You're all I notice
In a crowded room
Your vacant motives
Unmoved, revealed

Medellia of my eyes
You're the emptiness of I
You're the reason that I drive
And if you say you will
I would love you still

And if I just could
Be anything for you
Just anyone at all
Anything that mattered, washed out

You're the silly reasons
In a goldfish laugh
You're the ageless seasons
At rest, at last

blank
billy corgan
© 1996 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

I wish I was blank
I wish I was blank
I wish I could thank
I wish I was blank

I'd write a letter to you
And there'd be nothing to it
I wouldn't hem and haw
On just how to start it

I wish I was blank
I wish I was blank
I wish I could thank
I wish I was blank

I wish I'd stand up straight
I wish I'd said things different
I wish I'd said nothing
Things would be so perfect
I wish myself to keep
I pray my soul to sleep
I wish myself away
I wish I was blank

tonite reprise
billy corgan
© 1996 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

and the embers never fade in my city by the lake
the place where i was born
as the wind-up toys wore down
muffling the sound of a life hidden underground
believe, believe in me, believe
that you can change, that you're not stuck in vain
we're not the same we're different tonite
we'll crucify the insincere tonite
we'll make things right, we'll feel it all tonite
the impossible is possible tonite
believe in me like i believe in you tonite

transformer
  billy corgan
© 1996 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

[hit it]
a livewire moves slow
a transformer always knows
the score is four
leaves you hanging on the floor
for more and less and more of the blame
and she's tired
and she's sick of the same old s***
it's just more of the same old same
i know she wants more and more and more to witness
to lay down and bear true
a cherry onion firefly
tastes sweet and white
as you are blue
knows just what she wants to do
with you below the silver skies
don't hate her because she's undecided
and she's tired
and she's sick of the same old s***
it's just more of the same old same
i know she wants more and more and more to stomach
in honor of her youth
she's not sorry she's happy
sorry she's happy
she's not sorry she's happy
sorry she's happy as a turtle
she's a real live transformer

the aeroplane flies high (turns left, looks right)
  billy corgan
© 1996 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

I really don't wanna look stupid when I'm sleeping
I never really liked sunny days
The black wings just reach out to me over a distance...
And I can feel the wind from the wings
I see the clouds, I feel the ocean with my feet, and I'm home again
It requires an ability to judge distance
The airplane flies high...turns left, looks right

love is a sentimental heart
life is a sentimental way
spy the fragile heart so cursed
as he walks across this earth
i'm disconnected by your smile
disconnect a million miles
and what you promised me
i hope will set you free
i'm disconnected by your smile

If I knew where I was going I would already be there
(Laugh) I wish I had more time
Judicious, beautiful, uh, demented, whatever
I've always been afraid to die, but I think I'm more afraid to live

and all i gave to you is lost
and all you took from me is lost
black wings carry me so high
up to meet you in the sky
i'm disconnected by your smile
disconnect a million miles
and what you promised me
i hope will set you free
i'm disconnected by your smile
wishing you were real to me
wishing i could make believe
i'll take my secrets to the grave
safely held beneath the waves
always knew i couldn't save
always knew i couldn't save you

[8:02] And in the heart I know you're there
And in my heart I know you care
And in my heart I know you don't

the last song
billy corgan
© 1996 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

this is the last song
this is the last song i'll sing for you
this is the last song
this is the last song i can give you
the roaring city sleeps
metal fingers clutching dirty sheets
and no one comes for free
in this place where the angels sleep
this is the last song
my eyes are open wonder to this
as you hold the secrets
i count the minutes off so perfectly
the shards of broken glass
sing the strains of a sad old tune
we've made it at last
but what we had is lost inside our past
this is the last song
could you find away across me
to forgive and forget me
to appease and relent me
to deceive and detect me
to understand and release me
to the dawn
this is the last song

the bells
james iha
© 1996 cellophane star music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

ooh the bells are ringing out
what a sound
ooh the bells are ringing out
what a sound
and i'm in love
the joy of love
the coming of
jesus
jesus
did you call my name
never ever felt afraid
did you hold onto
did you make it thru
you
there's so much doubt in every heart
for all our faults we carry on
jesus
jesus i ran away
i got so scared
i made mistakes
will i hold onto
will i make it thru
ooh the bells are ringing out
what a sound

my blue heaven
george whiting/roger donaldson

day is ending
words are wending
back to the show ?
each little nestling love
night sheds falling
love words calling
what makes the world go 'round
nothing my love when whippoorwills call
the evening is nigh
i hum it to my blue heaven
i turn to the right
? the light
? to my blue heaven
you'll see a smiling face,
a fireplace,
a cozy room
a little nest
that's nestled where the roses bloom
just molly and me
and baby makes three
we're happy in my blue heaven